very sad day

Such a very sad day here.

My friend i've been talking about... Well, she didn't make it....

Chris slipped away late last night with all her family and loved one's around her.

I went into work this morning to be hustled into the office by the manager and housekeeper - and these girls - who are my friends, almost my family really... we sat and cried together when they told me Chris was gone.

And I'm so bloody sad now . Distraught really... bereft. I can't stop crying and f'ing everything's crap.

I sat there today and made a total friggin pigs ear of the invoices, and extra's, and the letter to the relative's about Chris, and I thought "Oh girlie, come on, you're the administrator, not me... help me here..." and it was awful. Me and Sue and Dawn - it took us three days, and we broke the PC somehow, and frigged up the printer and we bodged everything on the paperwork too - and it took us three days to create this mayhem... and Chris used to do this trouble free on her own in less than a morning... with NOTHING damaged beyond repair - even if there was a few frazzled nerves...

God, I'm so gutted. Just so sad. I miss hernow, and I don't know what the hell I'm ever going to say to her lovely family in the days to come.

And you know what? Her body was given to medical science, because that was one thing she insisted her family knew she wanted - just in case.

How very like Chris to be thinking of others, even in her last moments. Bless her heart.